Starting again, for keeps this time. I’ve said it all before, and hopefully this time it will last. Before it was always about attracting someone, trying to make someone want me, thinking someone love me if I was skinnier. Because to my immature mind, attraction was skin deep.

This time it’s for me. Maybe that’s the difference that will make the change stick. I still want to be sexy at the end of it all. But even more, I want to be healthy. I don’t want the risk of diabetes or heart disease. I want to be able to run up a steep path or climb a rock wall. I want to be able to do yoga without my fat getting in my way and hurting when it stretches. Not the muscles hurting, but the fat. I don’t want it to get in the way of having a baby, or having a career in health care, because how can you preach it when you don’t live it? I do want to be beautiful for my wedding, but it goes so much farther beyond that. Yes, I want to wear a bikini on our honeymoon, and look stunning in my wedding dress. But is that the end of it? Not at all, that’s the beginning.

I want a healthy lifestyle, where I ride bikes and jog and exercise daily. Morning stretches instead of snoozes. Quality sleep instead of insomnia. Organic instead of processed. I want energy and happiness that doesn’t come from what I eat, but rather how I live and what I do with my time. I don’t want to look back and wonder how time has passed so quickly, because it was all in front of a TV, but rather look back and wonder how I accomplished that much in such a short time. I don’t want to wonder what a “normal” waist measurement should be for me. I don’t want to compare my arms to my sister’s legs and wonder which is bigger. I want the self-confidence that comes with knowing you are healthy.
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SB worked really well for me in the past, but I lost track somewhere among the too-busy life I was leading. Exercise will help a ton, so I have to be sure to do that. And maybe actually start a diet journal saying all I did and all I ate… It would be a first. And why not try something new to get new results?

So here is for yesterday (although I wasn't officially on SB):
Breakfast - Bagel breakfast sandwich from Tim Horton's - 410 Calories/ 31 carbs
No snack
Lunch- Beef and barely soup, salad and a cup of cottage cheese - 881.9 Calories/58 carbs
No snack
Dinner - Grilled chicken brest, peas, corn and mashed sweet potatoes - 425.9 Calories/59.8 Carbs

Total: 1717.8 Calories/148.8 Carbs

No exercise

But today I woke up early and did yoga! Yay!

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